Tuesday, May 15, 2012

;)

Hmm.. My dad resigned ald. And he's going to Johor maybe in 2 months. Sad :(
He asked me whether I wanna move to there but that means I have to start all over again.
But if I don't, I can only meet him like once for a month.
But then I think I should stay here until SPM, so I stayed.
I'm gonna miss him so much that time.
As my dad never leave me for that long.
And my mom will often go there,
so maybe I'll always stay at home myself next year.
If my brother went to uni.
Hehe, so that's one of the reason why I am so emo that time.
I was struggling to make my decision.
Anyway, Daddy, I love you. <3 C:

Friday, May 11, 2012

Dreams and reality.

Crying is the best way to express your feeling..
Though I hate to say so, but it's the truth.
Feeling the stress now.
There's too much things happening now.
And I dunno why, I just can't say it out.
So , I kept everything and now, I can't stand it anymore.
So I "burst", I cried.
Felt better after that, but the better feeling doesn't last long.
So, I'm just trying to make myself feel better by writing it out.
So, don't bother me.
That's it. Useless.
I wonder why I can't just be happy like the others.
I'm wasting my life by being unhappy,
but I just can't.
I tried my best and I failed.
Argghh..
Sometimes, I mean always,
When I wake up every morning,
awake from my dream,
I got a feeling "Owhh, why am I back to here again.."
Sad case. I prefer dreams than real life now.
Maybe dreams which are too sweet is not good for me.
But still I wanna have it,
so I would be happy for a few hours everyday.
At least in my dreams.
Okay, that's it. A long emo post.
Have to go on and live in my reality now.

Friday, May 4, 2012

Exam exam exam.

Hmm.. Last Saturday before the three-weeks exam.
And i'm still blogging x)
And I jsut knew the date of my piano exam.
It's at 10 a.m. on 7th of June.
Well, this can be considered as good news and bad news.
Bad news is it's just one week after my school exam, and i'm so scare that I can't prepare.
and good news is, I can go to the all those camps and lawatan after the exam :DD
Alright, I'm gonna start studying and practicing now.
This is going to be a torturing month D:
But I really really have to try hard to get the best result result :O
So pray hard for me :D

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

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I can't get him out of my mind already.
Gotta study but i can't concentrate @.@
I can't let this influences me. ._.