我不值得。

不要把我这么好，我不值得你这样做.我没有你想象的那么好，也没有那么善良。
我所做的一切，连我自己都不知道我到底是不是我心里真正想做的。 
我开始不确定自己的感觉，自己的想法。
突然觉得自己不像真正的自己， 觉得自己很假， 甚至觉得自己好像骗了别人那么久。 
想要变回我所谓真正的自己，也试过很多次想要跟你说。 
但是，我开不了口。
所以在这里说比较好吧。
我还是比较适合过我自己一个人的生活吧，也可能是我习惯了一个人。
我不知道我到底是怎么了，竟然做了那么多我不可能会做的事， 变得不像我。
但是我知道我不可以再继续这样下去了。
我不可以再继续过着这种不像我的生活，不可以再让别人认为那个就是我。
我不是会相信童话故事里完美结局的人， 所以我不会再做我所谓“不像我做的事”了。
所以，不要再对我那么好了。 我会内疚的。 
你要怎么样怪我都可以，但是不要因为我而让你难过， 
因为我...真的不值得你这样。 

Holiday.

Argh. Sick at the very first day of holiday.
Caught fever yesterday and still coughing now.
Other people were sicked during the exam and I am sick now.
Always wanna spoilt my holiday -,-
It's okay. Not gonna let it ruin my holiday which i have waited for so long.

Gonna be isolated from school and spend the whole holiday with my family.
So. Maybe I won't be onlining for a long time.
And don't worry if you can't find me, I will be "dissappearing".
Maybe you can't find me even through phone, i meant my mom's lar.
Cause she may won't be with me the whole holiday.
Gonna go to Johor this holiday and to Penang the next weekend after the holiday.
That's it. Gonna have a rest now. Still coughing D:

Meaningful.

 Saw this somewhere and i think it's kinda meaningful.

So True.

I really thought of this many times weih. I mean going back to childhood again, when we used to wish that we're already adults and can decide on our own, when things are not so complicated, when we don't really remember things. Heard of someone said this before:"Children have short term memory lost, they forget things easily. Maybe that's a gift for them" But we can't go back anymore. If I would go back, I would choose to do the same things all over again, maybe? But there's some of it I would change my decision. Well, those things that I've regret for doing.But:

"Everyone want's happiness. Nobody want's pain, but u can't have a rainbow without a little rain.."

So, we can't be happy without something sad and we've did and regret for that.