Fail to emo.

Well, I always failed to be emo. When I have a feeling "I don't wanna talk to anyone today, I just wanna stay quietly today. I got no mood." ,I always fail to do so. Because when my friends talk to me, I'll start talking alot again. ;D Is it a good thing or bad thing? But when I was talking to then and laughing, I felt like it's very very fake weih. It seems like I look happy and having fun talking to friends and laughing like crazy, but I felt sad inside. And when there's noone there, I'll be emo-ing again. Maybe I'm too good in pretending :p I got acting skills? ;D LOL, I think I just don't want other people especially my friends to be sad because of me. I think it's unfair to them. I just want them to be happy always (: Being emo is a very bad way to cure your sadness, you are just gonna bring sadness to everyone by doing so. If you can just pretending and be optimistic, but don't keep everything in yourself lar, you can say it out, you'll realize everything is alright after some times. Time can cure almost everything, I said almost. ;D Not everything is as serious as you think. If you got problem, just tell your friends or family and smile as if it's nothing really serious, and continue to be the normal you ;D It works on me (:  Lol, this is like a counselling session weih. ;D

Trying hard to change.

I am sorry if I've hurt you. I never meant to do so. I really don't know it will hurt you. I should have to ask more until you tell me what happen, but I didn't. I have to admit that I was kinda sad when you told my friend instead of me, but I know you just wanna tell me through her and I am the one who didn't care about you. And that line.. I don't think you just suddenly think of it and said it out, i really think you meant it. Maybe my friend was right. i'm pretending that I don't care about you because I don't want you to know that. And about the incident, I can't tell whose fault is it because I never witness anything.  I just don't want you to be involved in this kind of things because you could be hurt.

To everyone, please do tell me when I did something bad to you or anyone else. I don't like guessing whether it's my fault or know it through other people. I am not blaming you btw, but I just wanna let you know, tell me  if i've did anythg bad kay? I really don't know about it if you don't tell. I know maybe I can't accept it at the moment you tell me but I'll try to and change it. (:

Memories.

It has been a long time since last post  ;D
Oh  yeah, forgot to say. I went to the lianhuanhui (:
And It's fun , kinda crazy that night ;D Glad that our performance is considered as successful ;D
And the other performances are awesome weih. :D
There was a prank session and I took the balloon and i kena prank. I was the only one among the form 4s weih.   When i heard about the prank, i was stunted weih. And when i was doing, they are screaming  so excitedly -,- Btw, sorry for involving you :p
Well, after the lianhuanhui, when i was waiting for my bro to fetch me, I took alot of picture and here they are (:

Btw, that was the best weekend i've ever had.
Because of the lianhuanhui and my dad came back. :D
Thanks for giving me such a good memories (: <3

:)

Well.. My dad ended up didn't come back last week.
Maybe I shouldn't put too much hope i guess.
有希望就有失望.
That's what I always tell myself.
Hmm.. I dunno why but I felt kinda tired recently, especially this week.
Maybe there's a lot of activities and i was kinda exhausted.
but it doesn't seems like just tired, it's like i got no mood to do everything.
Not looking forward to school, or even the annual dinner this weekend..
What happened to me? D:
Btw, about the annual dinner, I haven't prepare anything yet weih.
Actually I planned to wear a dress but I just found out it doesn't fit me well,
so I have to change it.
Cham jor lor..
Gonna settle it by tomorrow, really gonna.
Hope I'll be in the mood that day :)
And my voice will be okay by that day.
I don't wanna miss the fun :D
Cheer up lar,  haiyo ;D
Promise I'll be okay ;)

*p/s: Just wanna say sorry to those who care about me. I don't meant to be like this, so sorry if I kinda influence you. :) But thankyou for trying to cheer me up, I know de :)

(:

My dad just talked to me through the phone.
After two months i guess, finally I heard his voice.
And he said he's coming back this weekend.
Yay! ;DD
I didn't know what to say to him when he was at the phone,
and I kinda regret after that :x
But it's okay, I just wanna hear his voice.
My mind was empty at that time,
but after a few minutes the call finished,
I felt like crying suddenly.
Felt like telling him I miss him,
but I don't wanna make him worry.
I'll just talk to him through phone tomorrow (: