School day~

Day 2 after school reopen. Got most of the exam papers.
The papers i got on first day are hmmm... really not good. :P
But today, the papers are okay lar. Better than what I expected :)
Can't expect much what, since this is the first REAL exam we got.
Overall A- to A+, only Addmath I got B+, ruined my straight A -,-
Getting this is already considered difficult for me, so next time gonna work harder.
Schooling again is no fun btw. Maybe because of results lar, but we were like very sien this few days.LOL
But okay lar, had a lot of fun in school also. HEHE :DD

Sometimes, It's great to know that you're important to people that you cared about. LOL sounds perasan.
Just wanna thankyou to those i meant :D
Hmm.. I just finished my piano exam. I think probably i can pass? MAYBE only ;D
Now only my real holiday actually started , and it only lasts for a few days. -,-
so i am in Penang now. Cause my brother wanna settle something about his studies.
Kinda boring , nothing to do. But maybe i really need some rest, so it's a good thing for me.
School's reopening soon, so gotta face my resutls soon.
But good news is, I am going to camp, away from the school and the stress :DD
But the bad news is, most probably my dad will be going to Johor when i am at the camp :(
But it's okay lar, one day I'll have to leave him also. When i have to go out to study. It's just i need some time to get used to it i guess :)

;)

Hmm.. My dad resigned ald. And he's going to Johor maybe in 2 months. Sad :(
He asked me whether I wanna move to there but that means I have to start all over again.
But if I don't, I can only meet him like once for a month.
But then I think I should stay here until SPM, so I stayed.
I'm gonna miss him so much that time.
As my dad never leave me for that long.
And my mom will often go there,
so maybe I'll always stay at home myself next year.
If my brother went to uni.
Hehe, so that's one of the reason why I am so emo that time.
I was struggling to make my decision.
Anyway, Daddy, I love you. <3 C:

Dreams and reality.

Crying is the best way to express your feeling..
Though I hate to say so, but it's the truth.
Feeling the stress now.
There's too much things happening now.
And I dunno why, I just can't say it out.
So , I kept everything and now, I can't stand it anymore.
So I "burst", I cried.
Felt better after that, but the better feeling doesn't last long.
So, I'm just trying to make myself feel better by writing it out.
So, don't bother me.
That's it. Useless.
I wonder why I can't just be happy like the others.
I'm wasting my life by being unhappy,
but I just can't.
I tried my best and I failed.
Argghh..
Sometimes, I mean always,
When I wake up every morning,
awake from my dream,
I got a feeling "Owhh, why am I back to here again.."
Sad case. I prefer dreams than real life now.
Maybe dreams which are too sweet is not good for me.
But still I wanna have it,
so I would be happy for a few hours everyday.
At least in my dreams.
Okay, that's it. A long emo post.
Have to go on and live in my reality now.

Exam exam exam.

Hmm.. Last Saturday before the three-weeks exam.
And i'm still blogging x)
And I jsut knew the date of my piano exam.
It's at 10 a.m. on 7th of June.
Well, this can be considered as good news and bad news.
Bad news is it's just one week after my school exam, and i'm so scare that I can't prepare.
and good news is, I can go to the all those camps and lawatan after the exam :DD
Alright, I'm gonna start studying and practicing now.
This is going to be a torturing month D:
But I really really have to try hard to get the best result result :O
So pray hard for me :D

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I can't get him out of my mind already.
Gotta study but i can't concentrate @.@
I can't let this influences me. ._.

:)

Hmm.. Recently, there was  a "emo season" weih. Suddenly many people were or are emo and I really dunno why. I tried hard not to being influenced but it was really difficult :x Really hope that i was that kind of person who is optimistic, but I'm not. So, I felt kinda failed in everything i did. I can't do better than the other in anything. :( I pretend to be just happy but actually i cared about all this thing. But now, i think it's kinda suffering if I keep making myself emo also, so i don't care lah. LOL what am I writing about. ;D

After this it'll be the mid-year exam. I'm gonna study from now on so I probably not gonna be blogging or onlining this much. PROBABLY :P If anyone saw me onlining, please remind me to study. I scare that i can't control myself and keep onlining. xD

After the exam, I'll be going to camps. But I'm not sure yet, cause my dad haven't agree yet :( He said I never take care of myself during the camp :o Haiz... I really tried mahh. Maybe i just can't take care of myself lor.. Hope he'll let me go lor.

That's it lar, I'll blog after the exam :)